So, it’s been a hot second since my last update. Just kidding, it’s been a full fucking semester and who am I now?
I’ll save you the suspense and just launch into it. In the past 5-ish months, I’ve become the freaking school cheerleader and mascot. That’s who. Wassup.
I’m half serious and half joking. The truth is that I think I have a fairly decent reputation in the class as a decent person. I know most people in the program, and have had at least one conversation with 99% of the class. I think most people think I’m friendly and nice, which is great. Unfortunately, I think I’m developing a reputation for being a bit of a ditz/clutz, at least outside of the classroom and outside of my learning teams. I think amongst my learning team members, people consider me at least on par with themselves. I do my work and what I do is usually done thoroughly and well. I’m not a subject matter in really anything, but I’m decent at most subjects – with maybe the exception of finance. Even then though, I’m not doing badly.
How are things going at this point? Well, I’m learning. That’s the most important thing, right? I’m learning about finance, accounting (not really though), economics, and marketing. Oh, and a whole host of soft-skills. I’d never guess this twist though: I’m better at the technical stuff than I am at the soft-skills. I’ve been blowing every presentation and practice interview. I’m awful at behavioural interviews now – wow.
Surprisingly, I’m not actually struggling too much with the school component of the program, BUT I’m struggling the most with the other stuff that is arguably more important. For example, I’m having difficulties networking with professionals. Maybe part of that is that I haven’t had the time (nor the emotional ability) to sit down and really decide what I want out of my future. Everyone else seems to either have decided to do consulting or finance, which actually makes the process a lot easier. For me, I’m pretty sure I don’t want to do consulting due to the lifestyle, and I’m 100% not interested in finance b/c it’s finance.
Anyways, that leaves me with a bunch of opportunities, but as you know… I don’t really like options. I like being told that I need to do something and then devoting all my effort into doing that thing well and to the best of my ability. When given too much free reign to decide myself, I don’t know what to do.
I understand that a goal of the program is to develop leaders that have the ability to make decisions, despite a lack of information… but I still suck at this. So far, I’m thinking maybe human capital consulting, but realistically I’m looking at what they call “just-in-time” work – CPG, healthcare, etc. I need to really narrow down what careers, specifically, I want to pursue in this area though. I can’t just apply to all positions, or at least that’s what the career managers tell me. I’m not sure what to do at this point, b/c not a hell of a lot of information is provided for me. I’m not sure what type of jobs I’d do well in, nor what type of fields I’d like to work in. UGH. And apparently I need to find this out yesterday. Yay.
Besides that though, things are going decently well. I’m a little surprised that I’ve weathered most of the storm, being hit only a couple of times by some big waves. I’m doing decently well in the program (I’d say I’m a solid average – and so would some other people, but let’s not get into gossip right now).
Now I’m supposed to take a week long break before we launch into semester 2, but already we’ve been given an assignment to read a novel and create some sort of production to discuss a question posed by the book. Yippeeee…
Anyways, I’ll let you know how the next semester goes in a few months.